Waves

One wave goes and another wave comes crashing through... May- June was a short but blissful dream, filled with friends, unfamiliarity, and dreams of what could be. The punchline came in strong, reminding me I really need to fly - away from the family. 

End june found me a new hobby, and a great new appreciation for the Deep Blue. Calligraphy classes continue as contemplation of my floorball 'future' swung like a pendulum. 

The router and contract termination saga took a while to settle, alongside a basket of patience, time, and effort not to lose my temper with my mum. 

Weddings galore and a strong USD with school fees due meant more money out my pocket this month of 8. 

Changes in the team and roles undertaken mean new challenges and longer working days. Add training and unplanned absences on top of that and I am just getting bugged every three minutes - literally. 

News of the unforgotten brother resurfaced recently, coupled with news of more money needed to fund a one-track mind. No wonder the money plant out front could never thrive. No time for itself, and the weather alternates sunny and gray too often, too extreme. 

Sometimes even waves come crashing into itself just too soon and too violently - I felt the moisture and several droplets crashing out of me, drenching a tiny corner of my pillow. 

Pause

Feb was amazingly relaxing and nourishing for the mind and soul. Think that showed in my skin that suddenly cleared up a month later...
March was a blur of familiar scopes, new faces, new routines and time that seemed completely warped. Hot yoga, oats and honey, gym, calligraphy.

April - it surprised even myself but the itch came back. Kept it at bay but it definitely set me questioning. Barely two and already here!?! L mentor is leaving but I feel stronger and so thankful for her indelible footprints in my life at a time when I was so young and uncertain. Steamboat and cards at a colleague's house till late last night - one of the joys of normal life... Wonder how long before the itch becomes a panic... Hope I act before that happens.

Too bad the skin is breaking out again :(

On my own two feet

Yunnan was amazing. My aunt and her whole family - they are amazing too. 

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Hot yoga the past few days have me aching all over. All over. 

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Negotiation failed, but I accepted the offer. Feels like I went back to a family that will help me grow, but honestly, I don't know how long I will be there - I just can't help wanting to spread my wings somehow. 

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Visited Ah Ma today - other than the eyes, she is still really healthy. My heart ached to see her back so bent and hair so white now, and I really wished I could do more for her. My little cousin is growing so fast and not so little anymore. 

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Also, my foot doctor is flirting with me, big time. And I like it. LOL.