Digressions

 My sleep cycle was doing beautifully for a 6 weeks, then Roots... and MJ... and more Roots... Back to 6/7am - 3pm cycles sigh. 

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The job listings are starting to look bare and perhaps I'm getting really bored. On the brighter side, found 2 really interesting MBA programs! Only consideration is that hefty, hefty price tag, and the 2 hr 45 min exam. Oh, and the 2 letters of recommendation. Ugh. Why do those even matter for graduate school? Who writes unflattering things, and would they even reject anyone on the basis of these 2 letters? Still don't get the point. 

Also, obviously still can't easily and don't like asking people for help. Hence, the dread about the recommendation letters lol. 

And why, after 2 months, I still have not even messaged Marco to ask a simple question. 

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Watched The Theory of Everything last night -- a movie based on the renowned physicist, Stephen Hawking's life, for his first marriage -- and my biggest takeaway was that even renowned atheists/thinkers can marry someone with completely different beliefs. Opposing, even. Lol. 

Dreams

The fantastical and random dreams are back. I know my mind is probably bored. Initially its return caused some anxiety and I felt rushed looking for jobs, but now that I've accepted its presence instead of trying to make them go away, I just ride the dreams.

Few days back I told X that I'd dreamt of her and her mum visiting me at a resort/hotel-like place with her few months-old infant. And she kinda freaked out then already so I shall not tell her of the one I had last night haha. 

Don't remember much of the setting but for some reasons 2 words stuck when I groggily woke up to the 10am alarm (and went back to sleep): Boy. Cambridge (? Not sure if I recall correctly but I think it was this, I remember thinking in the dream that it's such an odd, and very English word that wasn't usually used for a person's name haha). No idea why, but let's see. 

(Edit: Turns out that day was Mr. X's birthday too. What are the odds... Lol)

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Had my first interview in forever yesterday, and a 30-min one at that. Felt so rushed by the time and even though I prepped and prepped and prepped, even timing myself twice with the self-introduction on video, but wow... So many parts where I could have expressed myself so much better and shared more relevant points. I'm usually quite forward-looking so I don't really remember what I've done, and plus it's been 1.5 years since I've been in that space and I'm learning new things so... memories were really dusty, even though I prepped beforehand, they still just didn't come up as readily as I'd like. 

Oh well, at least first one over. I am really excited by the company, its product and it's current scale-up stage and I feel like I have the right qualities and same values to really thrive at the role, but I can imagine that many more "traditionally" qualified folks probably applied so... I don't have high hopes. I just hope I get through to the next few rounds (case study; personality test) because it sounds pretty interesting! 

(Edit: Boo, didn't get to the interesting rounds :/)