Another gem from Quora on the best feeling in the world. Not sure if this is my best feeling in the world, but I think it captures a lot about the love and relationship I want: the peaceful feeling of being understood and accepted for who you are + romance (butterflies?).
But the real answer for me is--this peaceful feeling.
I don’t know how to describe it, it feels like most of the time my guard is a bit up, you always test and figure out how people are around you, and it’s the peaceful calming feeling that the other person knows and accepts you for you.You feel at peace at once.
I feel this with extremely close friends, and it’s an added bonus when you like someone romantically—and you feel at complete ease coupled with this peaceful feeling—that’s when I know I feel something.
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On another note, even though I initially denied it in the quick conversation with XX this morning, I think I am attracted to FB and scared of it. My head tells me this is really not the time to be thinking about a person when you are trying to figure your life out, so draw a line! But something else was holding me back from drawing that line, because what happens in your head hardly ever occurs the same way in reality. But... I did draw the line somewhat. I hope I don't regret anything.
Funny how denial and emotions work. In the past week, there was a lot of internal struggle to actually chat with FB - because I had some burning questions about career and life - and denying that I was attracted made things all the more difficult, and conversely, he popped up more often in my thoughts! That was very annoying. Instead, admitting now to myself that yes, I am attracted to him, I want to enjoy his company, I want to understand him more, may just be the cure for that. I really don't want anything romantic right now, but I really do want to be good friends. Funny because I usually don't feel this strong desire to become good friends with people, so it's hard now to actually try and pursue a friendship.
In short, I don't know how to make friends, because I don't think I really ever purposefully did so.
I am so pathetic sometimes. Heh.
But the real answer for me is--this peaceful feeling.
I don’t know how to describe it, it feels like most of the time my guard is a bit up, you always test and figure out how people are around you, and it’s the peaceful calming feeling that the other person knows and accepts you for you.You feel at peace at once.
I feel this with extremely close friends, and it’s an added bonus when you like someone romantically—and you feel at complete ease coupled with this peaceful feeling—that’s when I know I feel something.
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On another note, even though I initially denied it in the quick conversation with XX this morning, I think I am attracted to FB and scared of it. My head tells me this is really not the time to be thinking about a person when you are trying to figure your life out, so draw a line! But something else was holding me back from drawing that line, because what happens in your head hardly ever occurs the same way in reality. But... I did draw the line somewhat. I hope I don't regret anything.
Funny how denial and emotions work. In the past week, there was a lot of internal struggle to actually chat with FB - because I had some burning questions about career and life - and denying that I was attracted made things all the more difficult, and conversely, he popped up more often in my thoughts! That was very annoying. Instead, admitting now to myself that yes, I am attracted to him, I want to enjoy his company, I want to understand him more, may just be the cure for that. I really don't want anything romantic right now, but I really do want to be good friends. Funny because I usually don't feel this strong desire to become good friends with people, so it's hard now to actually try and pursue a friendship.
In short, I don't know how to make friends, because I don't think I really ever purposefully did so.
I am so pathetic sometimes. Heh.
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