I've had a really eventful week and even more happening weekend, but that same feeling is back. Productive Monday and Tuesday at work, spent Wed to Friday trying to get over a flu/cold and still work. Met up with the bistro gang before DeeMac flew off. Saturday was squash as usual then chicken rice with the makan gang and Ee-Are team building afterwards. Team building was great. Got home late, couldn't really sleep as I kept feeling that I had to make sure I wouldn't oversleep for Sunday's early morning activity. Finally settled down for maybe 40 mins before my alarm pulled me back into consciousness. Went to volunteer at the food kitchen, Willing Hearts - worked there from 5:45am to 12noon. Had a private lesson in my head on my own pride,judgement and some thoughts on management, while packing rice, veg, egg, fish into styrofoam boxes. Went home and crashed for 2 hours, then scrambled out for a match. Had a good, tough match which we lost but oh well. Then got home for dinner and some rest for my aching feet. Such a great week right? Even better week coming up with plans for free financial talks, pending visit to J&M's house with K&F, and XX's early birthday dinner. Random but in the reservation, I actually put a note saying "Celebrating my best friend's birthday!" and had a wry thought that now that I am finally able to call her that, we probably actually aren't that close anymore. Maybe that's why I'm able to say it out loud even to myself. So odd. Like I said, I still don't really believe in best friends. Somehow the way I've socialized with friends has always been a little bit of a weird pattern - not in big groups or cliques but always 1x1 with select people who hit it off somehow. So it's hard for me to find intersections with my good friends.
Still had a nagging feeling of something mono-tarinai despite all these blessings and busy-ness. Then I read an article (http://www.thesimpledollar.com/what-should-i-do-with-my-life-the-fundamental-question-of-personal-finance-and-a-surprising-answer/) while doing my almost daily self-education on finance. And it struck. Struck not even a bell but, a... gong. Resonated so loudly. I've always had a general vision in my head of the life I want, and somehow I knew I'd get there and I just have to keep moving forward a step at a time, because somehow that's how my life has panned out so far. I don't think it's entirely due to my own... anything; fortune probably plays a huge part, but I've just always had that solid, underlying belief. This author though talked about actually identifying specific aspects of the life we want, and had a great way to address the "how?". So many faux-inspiring articles make sweeping statements like "Follow your passion", "YOLO", (both of which I disagree with, by the way), but so so so few can actually tackle the specifics of how. This article though, funnily enough appearing on a financial blog when it pretty much amounts to Life, identified something called "Flow States" -- or a time or state of mind where one is so immersed in the moment that time just flowed on unconsciously. And I just thought... that is brilliant. Seriously. So today, even as I was watching a very interesting episode of WGM and Law of the Jungle, my mind just kept tugging at me, till I had to pause LoJ and type this out. I've decided that my nightly exercise tonight will be writing down what this specific life I want, is. Pen and paper for this, just cuz that just feels so much more raw and intimate than hitting the keys on a dirty keyboard I really should clean.
This has been a great week, and in so many ways that were not listed. Like, rediscovering re-fashions and having Darwin Fish conversations :) Also, the desire to find my own hole and hide to regenerate has intensified after a great week like this, so I can't help thinking I'm definitely socially awkward. Or maybe just an introvert.
Peace out.
Still had a nagging feeling of something mono-tarinai despite all these blessings and busy-ness. Then I read an article (http://www.thesimpledollar.com/what-should-i-do-with-my-life-the-fundamental-question-of-personal-finance-and-a-surprising-answer/) while doing my almost daily self-education on finance. And it struck. Struck not even a bell but, a... gong. Resonated so loudly. I've always had a general vision in my head of the life I want, and somehow I knew I'd get there and I just have to keep moving forward a step at a time, because somehow that's how my life has panned out so far. I don't think it's entirely due to my own... anything; fortune probably plays a huge part, but I've just always had that solid, underlying belief. This author though talked about actually identifying specific aspects of the life we want, and had a great way to address the "how?". So many faux-inspiring articles make sweeping statements like "Follow your passion", "YOLO", (both of which I disagree with, by the way), but so so so few can actually tackle the specifics of how. This article though, funnily enough appearing on a financial blog when it pretty much amounts to Life, identified something called "Flow States" -- or a time or state of mind where one is so immersed in the moment that time just flowed on unconsciously. And I just thought... that is brilliant. Seriously. So today, even as I was watching a very interesting episode of WGM and Law of the Jungle, my mind just kept tugging at me, till I had to pause LoJ and type this out. I've decided that my nightly exercise tonight will be writing down what this specific life I want, is. Pen and paper for this, just cuz that just feels so much more raw and intimate than hitting the keys on a dirty keyboard I really should clean.
This has been a great week, and in so many ways that were not listed. Like, rediscovering re-fashions and having Darwin Fish conversations :) Also, the desire to find my own hole and hide to regenerate has intensified after a great week like this, so I can't help thinking I'm definitely socially awkward. Or maybe just an introvert.
Peace out.
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